What’s on my mind
I need to vent, and I suppose there’s no better place than here.
I had a complete breakdown in the traffic on the way home tonight. I cried half the way home. It’s just all too much for me at the moment. My mind is spinning with all this crap and I just have to get it out.
These are the things I’m stressing about… which is probably why I’m having the problems mentioned yesterday. They are random thoughts at the moment, so this post is going to be all over the place.
Work is unbelievably stressful at the moment, and has been for a few weeks. I wish I could say more, but I really shouldn’t. I just hope that the secret meetings are over now… yes, I know about them… those ones everyone was having as soon as I left the office. It’s not cool. Not cool at all.
I’m getting up at 5am, leaving the house before 6:30 if I can and then I’m only picking the kids up at my mom’s after 5:30 at the moment. That’s not cool either. I barely see them. Tonight Lance had to pick them up without a carseat for Connor because I was stuck in traffic and only eventually got home at 7pm!
And talking about that! I haven’t been able to get my meds yet. By the time I got to the shops, all the pharmacies had closed… again. I can’t keep up with the food and stuff for the house either… and food for Bradley for school… well lets not go there! I forgot to buy bodywash for the kids over the weekend, and I haven’t been able to get that yet either.
And I haven’t even sent out invites for Connor’s party yet!! And it’s next week! My poor baby. He’s getting so neglected. I don’t even know what to get him yet! I don’t even know who to invite! It’s a mess! At least I finished making the invitation tonight. I’m wondering whether to make it a dedication too, and I ask Lance and all he says is “I dunno!” what kind of help is that!!
And there’s more too, but it’s even more depressing… about this country and how I’m hating these politics and the crime more and more, and how despondent we’re getting about it all. So, I’ll just stop there about that.
And I hate to admit it, but the photo-a-day thing is also stressing me too. I’m determined to finish it, but I’m so uninspired now. I struggle to think of things to take photos of. And anyway, who’s actually reading the damn thing every day anyway!!
Oh well, maybe tomorrow will be a better day. I need to sleep now.
*HUGE HUGS*
Take care my friend.
BTW I check your photo blog everyday. EVERY one of your pics is excellent.
I hope all your stresses and troubles get sorted out soon.
Make a list, simplify, prioritise, ask for help, delegate and just do one thing at a time and what you can do. That’s all you can do and all anyone can ask…
Shout if I can help in any way.
*hugs* again
J
(((Hugs)))
Hope you feel better tomorrow!
(This country stresses me out just as much, I just want to leave!)
awww honey ((((Massive Hugs)))) for you, I wish I could ship you all over here to get away from it all!
I’m not there every day but I love seeing the gorgeous pics you take when I get the chance – you’ve so talented
Hope tomorrow brings a better day for you xox
I wish you were here.
(yesterday was baddy badness here too)
I hope you are able to take some steps toward making some things better ….
Many hugs for you. It really does sound like a rough time. If you need too…..just let go of some stuff. As much as I love to see your photos everyday….if it is added stress then take a break. we will all understand.
if you want to keep at it….here are some ideas.
Do a week of colors. Choose a color for the week like purple, then take a photo of something purple each day that week. Then do orange the next week and so on.
Do a week of the letters in your name. the first day take a pic of something starting with the first letter of your name, then the next and next, untill your name is done.
just some ideas, but again…if you need to, just take a break.
I hope things feel better soon.
sending you some hugs! I hope things settle down a bit for you soon.
(((hugs))) and then more hugs. I wish you were here as well.
I hope everything falls into place for you and soon.
Also? I read your photo blog via google reader every day. I am sorry I don’t comment.
Ughh- I was also close to tears yesterday- that traffic was something to behold. I so hear you.
(((HUGS))) Here’s to hoping things get better. Take care.
And I read you blog daily
Seems like everyone is feeling similar!
I do love your everyday photo’s but these things are supposed to be fun and if it is stressing you out, maybe you have done enough. However if you are like me stopping would stress you out even more?
(((hugs)))
I’m sorry you were feeling so down yesterday Jeanette. I really take my hat off to the moms who work full day and still try and juggle housework and children stuff in the evenings – I think you are doing a great job!
I must share, now that I stopped the photo a day blog it has freed about alot of my time. I was always worrying about what I was going to take a photo of, spending time going through the photo’s of the day to find the photo I like and then resizing it and uploading it. I nearly took an hour of my time each day which I’m now using to do the things I don’t get through during the day once Ethan goes to bed. If it’s any consolation I really like looking at your photo a day but I will understand if you stop – it’s not meant to be such a stress!
I am waiting right here in Canada with a cocktail and some handmade invites for you. Oh, and a whole slew of kids to come to the party.
*taps fingers impatiently*
Awwwww Jeanette….Big huggies…and a big shoulder for you. Remember when you held me when I burst into tears at your front door when I was going through the divorce and visa stuff? I want to be there for you now. That hug was just what I needed to take the edge off. So now I’m sending you a HUGE VIRTUAL hug!
And the advice to reassess your priorities. Connor does not need a huge party with handmade invitations. He just needs his mommy, daddy and brother’s love. He will much more appreciate your effort when he is older. And bodywash…pah! Who needs to have a bath everday? It’s overrated. Seriously. What is important is your and your family’s happiness and safety. And IMHO, you cannot have either when just the place you live in has so much stress.
A mom’s job is tough. And I know you. You want everything to be just so and perfect. It really needn’t be. Let the pressures roll off your back. (Betcha wanna punch me now:-)). Love ya x.
Hi Jeanette, I do so enjoy reading your blog and looking at your pics. I am not surprised you have had a melt-down! I said to Natalie the other night that I do not know where you get your energy from? Natalie’s advice is sound (yep believe it or not!) birthday parties are over-rated for littlelees, take Connor, Bradley, Lance and yourself off to Spur and have some family time together (or what about the Botannical gardens for a picnic and let them take bikes, scooters, football and just let them run wild!! I remember having a party there for my nephew and put a candle in a chocolate muffin (he still remembers it!!) If you want to have Connor dedicated DO IT! But it is not a matter of urgency is it?
You do such a fantastic JOB that I cannot wait to get in and read it and so look forward to your photos, but if you are stressing about it, let it go and maybe do a “catch-up day” when you are feeling inspired.
I must admit as to the SA thing, that I did not enjoy my holiday ove there in October/November because must of my day seemed to be spent in a car trying to get from one friend to another, what used to take me 20-30 min took me 1 – 2 HOURS!!! Although we did not leave because of the safety issues, I noticed a increase in unhappiness there among my friends and Family.
Take care of yourself, maybe take a step back, easier said than done I know!
God bless you all, and your friends on this blog, Stephanie
aai jeanette!! sounds a bit like my life
hope you see the light at the end of the tunnel soon…
Aww Jeanette sorry you are not coping right now!!
((HUGS))
And I love your pics by the way BUT if you feel you don’t have the time right now then don’t stress about it
Hi Jeanette just reading your blogg. So sorry you had a bad day hope everything is fine. I love reading your blogg and love your photo’s. You are a fantastic mother. Hope you chill out this weekend. As for Connor’s birthday a very simple party is all that he needs, he is too small for anything big. In a few years time when understands better then you can go all the way. Thinking of you.
Hi,
I am so sorry
I havent been a great friend lately, havent been there to listen either!
It has been a crazy crazy ride…
So sorry…chin up.
P.S.: I was too nervous to ask if AF arrived cause i would have been far too emotional.
Sorry.
P.S.: WE SOOO NEED TO SHOP!!!
Thats what is missing!!!
Hugs to you. Those secret meetings sound horrid. It is so sad that our lives are this stressed. Here I am sitting at work and will be here till much later. On a Saturday. While I should be playing with my kids